Career, Life, and Passion. A crisis stuck in stagnation
5 years since my career as a mobile developer. I have not seen myself improving nor enjoying it. I have my own flaws in the tech world. I often make mistakes as many programmers do. I'm not living paycheck to paycheck and I am frugal of my spending.
I want to see myself what I will do 1 year from now and how to commit these ideal plans in my life.
Most young adults and new to the corporate environment would want to experience the joy of spending and earning and vacation.I chose mobile development because it is one of the most in demand jobs in startups. I had web development experience but it was a daunting experience knowing that I will hate this job for the rest of my life.
After creating an open source payment wrapper for developers in the Philippines, thats the time I really enjoy showcasing it and improve my understanding of open source community. However, it really consumes a lot of time and effort to write and debug code that I often get distracted by a bunch of stackoverflow answers.
During pandemic, I was able to find a work from home environment where there are no micromanagements and easy to get along with the higher executives, the pay is above average and I've been saving a lot of money. there is just one thing that most of us will worry when we get older, that is loneliness. It's tough to endure these crucial times in crisis and the urge of bad habits. I don't have leader's intuition because often times it is not my call to initiate and take control of the tasks. I often follow what was given to me and fulfill before the deadline. There are vacation leave and christmas/new year leave to get some rest. A good work/life balance.
There are times that I want to experience as a young adult when I spend this kind of money to think about my hobbies, drones, action camera, long ride trips, out of nowhere experience, hiking and diving. That's cool and all, but I wonder to myself if I can commit to these wonderful things while still having my full time job. After all, It is impossible to become a Jack of all trades masters of none. You've seen those nomads enjoying the way of the remote work experience. I wanted to experience those but I am limited to the location I am currently living, and the condition of the internet connection that may often be slow and unproductive.
Moving forward. What I am lacking in all of these is time management and cutting costs to what I consider a priority and feedback flow. What do I think is best to enjoy doing it and experiencing it, good habits and practice, medication and meditation, and get a good romantic partner. It's good to experience these kind of events. I'm just lacking experience in social life and good organizing my tools at good use.
I hope that the future me will be as productive as I was 5 years ago an d continue to learn new things in life. Accept what it is and have courage to myself.
